It's been two years since we broke up, ,
 but it still feels like it was yesterday
I still look towards your direction sometimes
 Because it's not cool
 So much that I can't do anything about it...
 I even tried to forget you because it was so hard
 Where are you, and what are you doing?
 Maybe worrying is unnecessary
 Do you still remember?
 We cried together saying that
 Even though I'm such a weak crybaby
 I'll wait for years until that day comes
 I'm right here I won't go anywhere anymore
 I want to hear your voice, so I'll call you
 Are you avoiding me?
 But one day I found you
 You were holding hands with the person you love now
 And even though I should've been sad,
 I pretend to be strong
 All I did was wave my hand a little
 Good bye to you
 You, that I love so much that I will never be able to see again
 Goodbye, take care
 July 8th, Sunny day
who am i?Y

your not so typical blood loving light hating chocolate craving midnight pretty monster who runs around the house half naked, goes around breaking rules, listening to other people' s problems but not having the ability to solve her own.

what i ?
chocolates, blood, pretty boys, books!

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Thursday, February 25, 2010
11:51 PM

birthday that is.
shall i greet you?
i don't know.
i really want to.
but..
should i?
i dont even know if you still remember my birthday..

I've been thinking more about you every single darn day.
you fill my thoughts
even though i don't want to.
Do you still care?
do you still think of me?
have you really shut me out from your life?
i really think you do.
you're the one who told me to get over it right?

i haven't seen you for 2 or three weeks now.
im wondering how are you doing
i really want to fix stuff
but people and circumstances hinder me.

my logic's really telling me
that we weren't really meant to be
the situation, background, the people..everything
we just don't fit
but why do i still feel the same
I'm really trying to justify my loss
to tell myself that we shouldn't be together
but no matter how hard i try
i still end up at square one


we were at a theme park yesterday.
it feels so lousy.
cuz wherever i look
i see you
or something
that has to do with you.


i hate this feeling
and i really want it to go away.
i want to let you go.
but i can't


come monday
will i see you?
will we continue to ignore each other
will we continue to pretend that nothing ever happened
will i continue to pretend that i am okay
especially when facing my seniors?
will i continue to act stupid and numb
when i really feel angry and hurt?

will i?
will we?

and..
how will i react
when i learn
that you've found another one..


i might as well DIE.

live.laugh.love..DIE!