It's been two years since we broke up, ,
 but it still feels like it was yesterday
I still look towards your direction sometimes
 Because it's not cool
 So much that I can't do anything about it...
 I even tried to forget you because it was so hard
 Where are you, and what are you doing?
 Maybe worrying is unnecessary
 Do you still remember?
 We cried together saying that
 Even though I'm such a weak crybaby
 I'll wait for years until that day comes
 I'm right here I won't go anywhere anymore
 I want to hear your voice, so I'll call you
 Are you avoiding me?
 But one day I found you
 You were holding hands with the person you love now
 And even though I should've been sad,
 I pretend to be strong
 All I did was wave my hand a little
 Good bye to you
 You, that I love so much that I will never be able to see again
 Goodbye, take care
 July 8th, Sunny day
who am i?Y

your not so typical blood loving light hating chocolate craving midnight pretty monster who runs around the house half naked, goes around breaking rules, listening to other people' s problems but not having the ability to solve her own.

what i ?
chocolates, blood, pretty boys, books!

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Lyrics of the song "7?8?" by the gazette

Monday, May 17, 2010
4:39 AM



this was the wound i got from sayuri on that fateful day of november 13 in the year 2009




i'm watching the gazette videos right now. *i love this band to pieces!*
and i've come to think that i haven't talked about what i say, a big part of who i am.
My Violin.
so here's a short story on how i came to have a violin of my own.

when i was young i loved listening to songs like most other children my age. i was amazed watching at street performers and music recitals wherein amateur and pro musicians duke it out. i was amazed by how they put all those seemingly useless black notes into wonderful pieces of pure eargasmic bliss.
as i grew older, i watched my brother play with his ultra cool black electric guitar. I've always wanted to own one, but i always hesitated on buying any instrument.

until one day i saw this ultra cool picture of ate Zie in friendster. Well it made me think. she was holding a black violin there. i always liked how the violin and cello produced such heavenly sounds, but again i hesitated. i talked to a lot of people about this but then a certain friend told me:

"if you really want it, go for it. it's better to be the worst violin player in the world than not beig able to hold a violin at all"

so i bought one.
i was so happy that day. i held it while walking around the mall, in it's simple black case. i strapped it around my back, but as i was adjusting the straps, i got wounded.it was a long but shallow wound on my left thumb.
so i decided upon my violin's name.

Sayuri.


feisty as her owner, and yet as pure as a lily. untouched.
it was also inspired by a character from Arthur Golden's book.
i really wanted to be as "pursigido" as Sayuri.


it maybe quiet expensive, and that it may take me a really long time to finally end my pursuit of creating that perfect or ideal sound but i know everything will be worth it.♥

imma quote my beloved Uruha, the lead guitarist of the gazette

"until now, i didn't realize how a musical instrument can change one's life"

and indeed it changed mine.♥

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